2 Years Too Late...

Its been 2 years i've been shouldering this burden myself, never letting other people noe bout it and all. I tot that it will just fade away, but it didn't.. And todae, the burden that i've have been running away from has just caught up to me.. Todae i met Farhana's parents, my EX... My only one..

Bout a month ago, i heard news from my fren that dey will be coming back to Singapore. The qns is i dunnoe wen.. All i noe is that they will be back to Singapore for good.

Then on Fridae nite, around 10pm i receive a call from my fren. He told me that dey had arrived on wednesday and they wanna have a talk wif me.. So i called Farhana's parents and told them that il meet them on Sundae at their house. It reallie wasn't easy talking to them on the phone, due to wat happen 2 yrs ago..

Niwaes, i went there todae and surprisingly onli the parents and a sister were there. I tot that mayb the whole family including the cousins and relatives will be dere. But luckily they are not, phew! The sister look alot like Farhana, Frah her name is.. The hair, the skin, the cheek and the face.. Juz seeing her makes me remember bout Farhana..

So we talk, i told them wat i've been doing for the past 2 years and all. And how i've been feeeling when they told me bout Farhana 2 yrs ago wen i was still sec 3. I told them the reason y i neva reply back their email. Yar the discussion was very emotional, although 2 yrs has past. In the end, they ask me.. Have i forgotten bout her? Well, of course not.. I think bout her everytime. In class wen i'm day dreaming, wen i sing, wen i'm alone in my room wif the music turn on and wen i go to the beach.. The beach is kinda like a momento cos thats the place were we usually meet and all..

Sigh, although u guys may not understand. Bout hu Farhana is, wat happen to her, wat happen 2 yrs ago and all... All i can say is that i really regret... But no point regretting, cos i can't do anitin bout it. Atleast you ppl can see wat ur ex did, hear wat ur ex says.. i can't even do any of those. Today is really a moody day for me.. Hope to get on wif my life soon, or atleast make things rite..

iTs BeEn To LoNg...

Been busy lately, so i dun have the time to post as often as i had wanted. First off, a lil bit of good news. I pass my physics common test! I got a 22/30, which is good and its my first distinction of the year, besides malay of course. On thursdae, the champions league match between Barcelona and Chelsea and wif a victory for Barcelona. I saw the match on T.V, woke up at 3.40am juz to watch the match which ended around 5.20+.. The whole day in school my eyes were reallie tired, guess it was the lack of sleep. Den had maths remedial after school! By then, my eyes can't take it anymore. I practically slept the whole maths lesson. I fmy eyes were open, then my mind was off somewhere else. After the remedial, i 'suddenly' felt freshed and stayed back for a while. I went to the gym wif Ashaari, Raziz, Mardhiah and Victoria for a while and then played soccer.

During these few weeks, my mind is kinda troubled by something. For about 4 years plus, i 've been keeping a low profile in school. Don't like to have a high profile, cos u might end up in the centre of attention. Something which i really try to refrain from getting into. But tis year especially, i dunnoe y but all of a sudden i'm kinda recognised in school. Not onli in school, but outside as well. I wonder if my behavior has changed?? From what i noe, i am more talkative in class. But thats onli in class, outside class im still the same as before. SIGH, it feels great to be recognised though but i'm not sure if i wan to be who i am wen i was in primary school. Come to think of it, its kinda stressed during my primary school daes. All the commotion and attention i receive, in the end my studies flopped like a bird jumping from a tree branch wif no wings to fly. My grades practically hit rock bottom!

Hmm, issit reallie possible to be recognised without my grades slipping. My mom warned me bout it already. If its possible, then y not? i could end my secondary school life wif a bang! Hahahahx, like if its possible. Mayb il juz wait and see, see how time goes by.

{StArT oF mOrNiNg wAkE uP caLL}

UEFA Champoins League has started!!! And i'm gonna wake up at around 3.30am just to watch the matches live. Yesterdae was Real Madrid VS Juventus, Madrid won 1-0 thanks to a header by Ivan Helguera. Today however is the highlight of the week. Barcelona VS Chelsea, both teams are top of their own domestic league and are doing very well. I'm rooting for Barcelona!!! Hope they trounce Chelsea for good...

Niwaes, enough of soccer.. Todae was a very long day. Skool finished around 2pm and i went to White Sands for a while to get some A3 paper for DNT. Den i came back to skool and meet up wif Ashaari, Vic, Raziz and Norman before going for SNO practice. They were doing the class presentation thingy, den me, Ashaari and Norman went to the hall for a while to catch a glimpse of the malay dance training and the Health And Fitness dance programme. Mrs Khiu was calling all TAF club members at the canteen. The dance was lead by Mr Tharmen and Mdm Nasyita.

During SNO, we practice the song Danny Boy. This time, wif the melody 2 part as well. The song so far is reallie nice, and there will be bound to be some changes. As usual, Mr Khamis will change the song till the eleventh hour of the SYF. As long as it makes the song better, den its okies.

Oh well, i have to end here although there's quite a lot to write. Tmr i need to wake up eary to watch soccer. N later if i write too long, some ppl (MAUREEN) will complain that its too long lar.. Sigh, hope its adequate for you now! Okies then, see u.. Im outz

Mondae Blues, Common Test News..

Mondae!!! Start of the week, and what a bad start it is todae.. Juz got my common test result for Maths and English. I passed English, only borderline. Doesn't matter that onli 5 person in my class pass cos the test was kinda easy. I was kinda disappointed in a way, but relief that i passed. Maths test i failed! "Theoratically" that is, cos i should have gotten a 30/60 but instead i got 28.. There's this one question which doesn't require any working, *in my point of view* to get the answer. But my teacher still want a working, and bcos of no working, she didn't accept my answer although its correct...

After school, i had Common Test for Science. Chemistry was hard, but the qualitative Analysis question was easy. y?? Cos my teacher once gave me the qns for class work. Same qns, same diagram. All i had to do was remember the answers for the question. Physics was harder than expected. I did'nt study Physics at all and questions from electromagnetic waves came up. I was confused at first cos the topic was taught last year and i had forgotten most of it. Niwaes, i did the test oredi and there's nothing i can do but hope that i pass. Wats done is done..

After common test, i had SNO practice. After practice.. I, Suhail and Mr Khamis went to eat at kopitiam. I was reallie hungry and as usual Mr Khamis treated us. Hahahx, so grateful!(",) I ate rice wif eggs, bagedil, kuah lemak and sambal ayam.. We talked bout issues regarding the SNO and then i went home in a cab wif Mr Khamis..

Now im having a problem wif my DNT.. I need to print the pics for tmr presentation and my printer is not working, so are my frens. Must think of something, my eyes are getting heavier by the minute. I slept late last nite watching Black Hawk Down, and may i add wat a great show it was. Kudos!! Den todae i had a reallie long dae wif no afternoon nap and im dead beat. Im quite frustrated wif my DNT prob now. Oh well, mayb il juz save the pics in the diskette and print the pics in skool tmr. WOW!! i just solve the prob by juz comtemplating it at my blog, hahahahx.. First time onli, sigh.. Klah, i gotta go. Good nitez, n swit dreams.. ****

WeEkEnD DeLiGhtS...

SATURDAE...
I had a great weekend this week. Not much happen but it was pretty much the weekend which i wanted. No outings except for SNO practice and Soccer practice. BTW, by the looks of it i'm sure u have noticed that i had recently changed my blog skin. How issit?? Any comments feel free to leave it at my tagboard..

Yesterdae i had SNO gamelan practice from 9am-12pm. After practice.. Me, Haikal, Razin and Mr Khamis went to Kopitiam at West Plaza to have a drink. Mr Khamis had Cheng Teng cold while the 3 of us had Ice Kachang. We talked bout movies and stuff. I felt so jealous when Mr Khamis told us bout the Return Of The King Extended Version. He told us which part was cut from the movie and from the sound of it, it looks like there's quite a lot that was cut. I must buy the extended version on DVD, but too bad no money. The onli way is to buy at Johor but i dunnoe when my parents are going there again. I heard that the the Lord Of The Rings Trilogy Set DVD plus extended version cost bout 52 ringgit.

After we finished eating, Haikal and Razin went home while i accompany Mr Khamis to Compass Point. Since its near my house, why not? He needed to buy some medicine pill from Guardian Pharmacy. Something bout Azheimer, if its the correct spelling. All i remember was the medicine brand was ZYTEC. After that, i went home and had a short nap before i log in at MSN and began my Chemistry revision. Tassha called and she also helped me, i can't seem to understand bout qualitive analysis. The way she say it sounds so easy, but to me its reallie complicated. Sigh, must buck up! If Tassha can do it, so MUST i!!!

SUNDAE...
This morning i had soccer practice. It was ok, i kinda slacken abit. Guess my mind was off somewhere. Niwaes, after soccer had breafast wif Yan, Muhd, Azri, Faris and Khairi. We talked, laughed and sit for a while before we make our way back home. Once i reached home, i tried to use the webcam but there's sumtin wrong wif the power supply. Hmm, must do it again.. Den i change my blog skin and now im posting my entry! Tonite sundae nite movie is Black Hawk Down. Must watch!! But before that, i must revise my chemistry and physics. If have time, den mayb i'l do my geog hw which is due tmr.. Sigh, kinda stressful. Common test is tmr as well, science.. Tats y must revise.. okies then ,gotta blast. I wanna eat my lunch, very hungry now..

Long Day It Has Been

Helo! I've been quite busy lately. Skool, SNO, studies and outside activities has kept me reallie bz. But luckily i have the time to post my blog. Thursdae was a normal day for me. I had skool, remedial and then went home. Nothing much happen, wen i reach hm i log in to MSN and listen to music while doing my malay homework. I chatted wif Nadia, she was sick and didn't come to skool. Sigh, poor girl.. She told me bout her veri long dae on wednesdae, here's a brief of wat it is.

{Skool.. 7.20am-1.30pm}
{Dance practice for skool.. 2pm-6pm}
{Went to Kampong Melayu at Geylang.. 6pm-7.30pm}
{Dance practice for Sri Warisan..8pm-10pm}
{Reach home, dead beat and showing signs of fever.. 11pm}

I reallie pity her, being active for more than 12 hrs non-stop. As a result, she had a fever and couldn't come to skool. Hope she will get well soon, and i reallie wanna try the porridge which her auntie gave to her. Heard that she felt better after taking it, the porridge must be something special.. Hehehehx

Fridae is always my favourite day. Cos its the end of the skool week and i can enjoy two days break. However, nowadays fridae tends to be reallie tiring for me. The first 2 periods is P.E, always do exercise such as push-ups, jumping jacks, crunches, birpies and much more. After that, those who passed the 2.4km trial run get to play games. My time of 10 mins flat is enough to pass, so did most of the boys. So, we decided to play soccer! The funniest part is when Fadhil kicked the ball and it hit Fairuzi. Fairuzi was holding his stomach, guess it must have hurt. But, as 'true' frens we were.. Instead of helping first, we laugh our hearts out then we ask if he's alrite. Hahahahx, i pity Fairuzi. Luckily i wasn't the one at the receiving end.

After P.E, i had malay. Passed up my homework which i did yesterdae, and did some storyboard exercise. Den, it was social studies. Mrs Warrier came to my class and gave us some papers to write our comments regarding the work we did during remedial. During recess, i ate a bit late cos i changed to my skool uniform first. I was feeling reallie uncomfortable and my body was sticky. Must have been the sweat during P.E..

After recess, the dae juz keeps gettin hotter and hotter. Maths ended quickly and journal was a breeze. I onli write half a page, which is not acceptable but heck care! I was reallie not in the mood to study. My eyes are sleepy and i was feeling kinda hot due to the humidity and sweat. After skool was over, me and my frens went to Masjid Ghufran for fridae prayers. Then, we went to buy bubble tea first before proceeding back to skool for remedial. Bus 15 arrived reallie late. We waited for bout 20mins then it arrived. As a result, we arrived skool at 2.55pm. Bout 50 mins late, and Mr Anwar was already waiting for us at the foyer.

After remedial, i had SNO practice. Good news!!! I will be playing bonang for the SYF Angklung Ensemble, my favourite instrument. Wo0ho0!!! Confirm it wil be great, plus i will also be playing the Gendang for the Gamelan Ensemble. So i'm representing for both ensemble, ain't that cool! Just like the previous SYF..

After practice, i went home and eat before getting ready for mengaji.. Now, i juz finished mengaji and i'm listening to music.. Karma by Alicia Keyes

My eyes are now heavy, im reallie sleepy. Tmr i have SNO practice again but onli for Gamelan. i'l end here for now, mayb i'l post back tmr if i have the time. Science common test is on Mondae! i DUN UNDERSTAND CHEMISTRY AT ALL!!! Must revise my work and not forgetting physics as well. Oh well, gtg.. Take care, bye..

Total Defence Day & The Day After It...

Tuesday is Total Defence Day. It commemorate the day when Singapore fell to the Japanese and the start of the Japanese Occupation. Singapore suffered during the occupation and many died of starvation. Total Defence Day reminds us of the hardships that was inflicted on us and it serve as a reminder that we can no longer depend on foreigners to protect us.

Total Defence Day in my skool is always the same as usual. In the morning, the principal will yack bout the significance of Total Defence Day and how it is important to us. Den we had our fire drill evacuation exercise and food rationing. The fire drill exercise was kinda ok, cos the weather was so hot and the students had to stand at the school field while the teachers go bout their duty. Furthurmore, we were wearing our tie on that day so it was reallie warm. The most funny thing bout the exercise was the blunder that the teacher made. Whoever was in-charge of the medical team sent the first 'hoax' ambulance away without any casualties. That means the ambulance was on its way to hospital without any injured person, in other words the ambulance had no passenger.. Hahahahx, reallie the teachers should use a bit of common sense.

The food rationing exercise did have some problems too. Mardhiah and Kenny made a mistake by cutting the coupons into half. Cos there's 2 50 cents on the sides of the coupon therefore they tot that the coupon must be cut into half before it is distributed to the class. When we go for recess, the coupons can't be used. So i had to wait till after skool den i can eat cos by that time the canteen vendors had started to sell the usual food. Its no surprise that i ate rice wif nuggets and hash brown twice, cos i was really hungry at that time.

Todae was a really tiring dae. I had physic for the first time in 2 weeks, i reallie enjoyed the long break from physics. Kinda relieved cos im getting bored wif it, a break from it will surely bring back my interest in the subject. Todae's POA lesson was a real BORE! I had to sit on the floor of the AVA room twice cos i was making too much noise.. But in fact, there were others that were much more noisier den me. It juz so happens that i was insulting his effort to create jokes that were reallie lame. Guess he should accept that fact, instead of asking me to sit on the floor twice even though i did my work.

After skool, i had SNO practice. We are preparing for the SYF competition n we are playing two songs. Romo Ono Maleng and Danny Boy. Romo Ono Maleng was played at our Solo concert and Cest La vie 3. So, wats left is juz to teach the sec one's the song. Our new piece, Danny Boy is reallie a nice sentimental song. Its soothing, relaxed and slow. Although its not finished, the song has been good so far. But confirm Mr Khamis will change the song as time goes by, he will change the chords and the notes unexpectedly but it always turns out better. (",)

After SNO practice, i went home cos i had mengaji at 8.30pm. Before i bath, i chatted wif Ifah on the MSN for a while. OUR FRENSTER ACCOUNT IS NOT WORKING!!!! We can't log in and Ashaari told me that my account was invalid at his frens list. If tats true, it means that my account has been deleted. Argh!! I too lazy oredi to make a new one and invite my frens again.

After mengaji, got back and continued chatting on MSN while watching American Idol. The good news bout my frenster was that Hazatul's account has my account on her frens list. And it was not invalid. Yan also can't log in, and i chatted wif him for quite a while. Pracitcally arguing for fun, hahahahx.. Great pal to talk wif, no matter how lame the topic is we were still able to make it fun and entertaining..

Alritey then, i'l end here 2nite. I'm watching theater komedi at Suria now. Its damn funny, seeing all the actors making jokes and singing the song Dondang Sayang in humourous fashion. I'l post again if i have the time tomorrow, if not den the day after tomorrow. Bye2

MoNdAy bLuEs...

Started the day not really in the mood to go to school. I was really sleepy and tired as i had slept late last nite, busy chatting and doing my revision for Maths test. Todae is gonna be a very long day, cos the starting period is POA. 3 PERIODS!!!, ONE AND A HALF HOUR OF BOREDOM... Really, i had to listen to Mr Simon Lim yack non-stop as he tries to make jokes that weren't reallie funny. Sigh! During his lesson, Mardhiah and Kenny got send out of the AVA room cos they were talking. But in fact, Mardhiah was asking Kenny qns rearding the topic. I dun blame her though as i myself dun understand one word of wat his talking. I must go back home and study the topic myself, i'l understand better that way.

Juz got my maths test todae, the probability test. I passed! Scored 15/20 but i had 2 marks deducted cos i didn't bring my own stapler. So lame! Forgetting to bring stapler also results in loosing marks.. Like during the 'O' Levels, the invigilator will penalise us for not bringing the stapler. After Maths, recess!!! i ate rice wif eggs, 2 nuggets and chicken. Delicious, Bon Appetite!

English period, i did the summary common test. Since there was no time to do the summary during common test as onli 1 hr is given, the Eng department decided to do it during lesson time. I was in no mood to do the test. First it was Mondae, and i'm suffering from Mondae Blues. Secondly, i juz had 3 periods of POA wif Mr Simon Lim and Lastly, i'm having my maths common test later during the dae. Besides, summary isn't one of my strong points. So i juz scramble the points and write it. I didn't count how many valid points i had written. But i do noe that i wrote 151 words which was 1 word too much. So instead of writing 151 words at the bottom of the paper, i wrote 149 words. Hahahahx, (",) Hope teacher won't spot the mistake. Even if she does, i'l juz say that i miscalculated it.

Last period of the dae was geography, and wat a real bummer it was. Just got back the test i did 2 weeks ago, and i failed! Badly failed the test, got bout 2/15. Really pathetic, my ans were correct just the way of answering the qns is wrong. Kinda pissed off by tt actually, niwaes wats done is done. Mayb i can redeem myself 2 weeks ltr, wen dere's the humanities common test. Reallie wanna score on tt one!

After geog, i had bout 30 mins break before common test starts. Me and my frens went to the canteen to drink and joke around. As usual, Ashaari was the constant target for our joke. Hahahahx, always step cute onli. If he's cute den its ok, but tis one not! If ur reading tis, jgn marah ya adik. Nanti cam bunga lak, hahahahx.. Juz kiddding

Maths common test... Onli one word crossed my mind after the test. FAIL!!!! the test was really hard and my brain was like pounding after the test. Not my heart but my brain, cos i was thinking so hard bout the problems n all. After the common test, i went home and bathed. Get ready to go to the mosque.

Well, you people might be thinking wat will i be doing at the mosque during Valentine's Day. Well, its kinda personal and it has sumtin to do wif my EX. After that, i went to do the beach to do some soul-searching. Guess i had loads to think bout. Spent bout an hour on the beach, juz sitting and enjoying the wind as it blows. Den i went home cos my uncle is expecting me, needed to clarify some things in the family and unfortunately it has got to do wif me.

After that was over, i logged in to the internet and MSN. Now, i just chatted wif tassha. I'm pretty sure she is kinda mad at me rite now, cos i refuse to tell her sumtin. Oh well, just gif her time and she will get over it, i hope. Nadine is doin her hw so im not disturbing her YET, waiting for her to open the webcam and den il get it started.. Hahahahx

Monday, marks the beggining of the week. Occasionally, i always refer Monday as mondae blues bcos its the start of the week and i am always sleepy as i slept late on sundae. But Mondae blues or not, a good start is essential in having a good week for the rest of the daes ahead. And wat a way to start the week by opening it wif Valentine's Day. Valentine Day is a day for lovers, and it is dedicated for their loved ones. I miss my EX, but i can't do anything to change the past. Just hope she's fine, wherever she might be. Its a past i want to forget, but forgetting her its like the moon without the Sun. Without the Sun, the moon won't be visible as it needed the light of the Sun to be seen. Same goes here. She is a part of my life, and will always be. Forgetting her, its like taking my life away. i noe that the mistakes i did can never be undone, i regret it. Just wish that time will turn back, and i can go back to the moment when we had our last conversation.

Surprised, yet expected...

Muhd Smiley sms me at 7 am tis morning, making sure that i woke up and not be late for soccer todae. Sigh, i plan to wake up at 7.20 but in the end i woke up 20 mins earlier. Oh well, atleast its not like an hour or two earlier so im cool wif it.. HEHE... I took a bath and get my gear ready, by 7.50 i was out of the house and on my way to the training ground at Pasir RiS. Yan, Faris and the rest was already there when i arrived. Onli Azri and Danial hasn't arrived yet. So i sat there, talking to my frens. Our coach soon arrived and we gear up wif our soccer boots and did some stretching.

Todae's practice was kinda boring. We did some jogging, dribbling, one-two passes and shooting. After that, we played a friendly match against each other. No surprises my team won 2-1, thanks to a winning goal by none other than me!! Hahahahx, but reallie it was all down to teamwork in the end. So in the end, the whole team gains. After training; Yan, Azri, Danial, Faris and me wen to Kopitiam at West Plaza to have a late breakfast. I had rice, curry, bagedil and telur mata lembu. Spent bout a total of $2 for the food, it was delicious and money well spent. (",)

After our breakfast, me and Yan went to 7-11 to buy water while waiting for Azri and Danial cos they went to buy Ice at a nearby stall. Me and Yan talk bout crap for a while, since its just a boy's talk niwaes. You won't want to noe all the details, kinda secret.. Hehehe, then i went straight home and check my email before going to sleep. I slept for about 2 hrs when i was RUDELY AWAKEN BY THE SICKENING LION DANCE!!!!! Sigh, i was sleeping peacefully wen all of a sudden, the loud banging of the drums startled me. I was so pissed off!

Then i followed my parents and my LiL bro to Compass Point. He needs a haircut and i need a timeout as my sis has completely messed the house again with her cookies thing.. So i was at Compass point, my dad taking care of my bro wif his haircut and i went to kiddy palace wif my mom to find my bro a track pants for his camp which starts tmr.. Its a good thing as i won't get to hear his voice for 3 daes, very peaceful if u noe wat i mean.. I also bought a nice shirt, at Bossini. Very nice, its white in colour and the material is dri-fit.

Well, now i 've reached home and doin my blog. Its a great dae todae, had loads of fun and unexpected surprises. Tmr is Valentine's dae, so to all lovers out there, have a Happy Valentine's Day and hope ur love life will be blissful. Remember, don't just show ur love ones that u care for juz a dae. Show it everydae as well. Cos wen ur in love, everydae is Valentine's dae. Take Care, and happy loving!!!

Strange Day it Has BeeN

Woke up at around 8 plus, the constant alert of sms reallie started to annoy me. First of all, i can't sms as often as before cos my hp bill has increased drastically. Last month bill was around $132, this month it has increased to $233.55. I had a talk wif my dad and he told me to reduce my sms usage. Can't blame him though as i had 2508 sms. Sigh, wat am i goin to do now??? What will i say to all the ppl hu sms me everydae!!! Hope they will understand.. reallie i do

Niwaes, last nite i made a new fren. Her name is Nani. She is a close fren of my close fren ifah, whom i juz noe tis year.. Hahahx, ifah has been a great fren of mine although we had just started to noe each other. if ur reading this girl, thanks for being there for me! The downpoint is i can't sms wif Nani as much as i wanted to cos of my hp bill. Sigh, its too constraining for me. Luckily my dad neva took my hp, if he does i dunnoe how i will survive. (",)

This morning, i log in to MSN and LiL Wany was online. We chatted for a few hours, btw she is also a fren i juz knew. Bout 3-4 daes ago thru frenster she added me and den we started chatting on MSN. She a great gal, very nice to talk too and very outspoken. Well, the longer we chatted, the closer we got. At around 11, i stopped chatting for a while cos i need to take a bath.

After bout 30 mins, i logged in back and Wany was still there. However, this time, our conversation became personal. Won't leak out all the details cause its kinda private but all i can say is she regards me more than a 'fren. Hmm, we havn't even met and she already feels this way. Hmm, she is a great girl no doubt but i'm not sure if i could start another relationship again. Gotta go think bout this first, and i reallie dun want to break anymore hearts. Already this year, i 've broken 3 hearts. Not that i was having a relationship wif them, its just that i couldnt start a relationship wif any of dem and dey were kinda heartbroken.

Sigh, its a strange day for me todae. First off, i can't sms as often as i can. Sori to the ppl hu smsed me todae but i neva reply. I made a new fren named Nani hu is also a fren of my close fren ifah. And a nice girl whom i just noe for bout 3 daes has loved me.. You guys might think that im a playboy or a casanova wannabe but i reallie didn't meant it. Guess it juz comes with the whole package, hahahahx.. Juz Kidding, no joke no fun rite?? i learned it from Ashaari.. Alrite then i'l stop here for now. I may post again at nite if anitin happens to me tt may interest u, catch you all later..

Pics frm my SNO concert and Cest La Vie3

My immortal by Evanescence

My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]
When you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
And i've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now i'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along

[chorus]


Although most of you won't noe wat im talking bout, since you all havn't met my EX and im pretty sure you won't. Plus onli two person noe the real story bout my past..This song is dedicated to her. I regret all the things i said to her she will be a memory which i won't forget..

Recent Happenings

Since its juz my 2nd entry, i would like to tell you bout the recent happenings in my life. Starting with the Siglap Nusantara Orchestra(SNO) Solo Concert which was held on the 31st december 2004. The SNO is my CCA which i joined since the start of my secondary school life. Basically, the SNO is a musical orchestra consisting of the Angklung, Kulintang and the Gamelan Ensemble. We are the first to have such an orchestra assembled in this manner so im kinda proud to be part of it. Niwaes, prior to the concert, we had a 3 daes 2 nite camp in school. Its kinda fun but very tiring. I play the gendang so my hands was kinda swollen after the camp. When performance dae comes, i was all ready to play. Guess my hands has become ' season' with all the practices. On that dae, there's 2 performance. The afternoon show started at 16.30pm. We played at the Tampines East CC auditorium. It was 4/5 full during the afternoon show, but the nite show was a full house. We played really well, i was extremely happy cos all the hardwork had paid off.

Next off was the Cest La Vie 3 concert. Every 2 years, my school will have a Cest La Vie concert once. Its kinda like preparing the performing arts group for the SYF. The concert was held at Nanyang Poly Auditorium on the 29th of January 2005. All the performing arts like the band, choir dance and wushu were performing. The guest of honour was Admiral Teo Chee Hean. I've seen him in person bout 3 times cos the SNO has played for him a couple of times before this concert. The matinee show went very well, the only downpoint was the audience. They were so boring, only applause was heard. There was no cheers, no shouting. Juz plain old claps. The nite show on the other hand was a total blast. The audience was great, they cheered, clap and even shouted my name!!! Guess the audience were mainly frm the upper sec, and they usually dun care bout any concert etiquette, WAY TO GO!!!

During the interval, i was choosen wif Shireen to represent the SNO to mingle with the crowd, particularly the VIP's and Admiral Teo. He questioned me bout the SNO, like how long i 've been here n all. The VIP's asked me bout the instruments and how the song is played. Well, the answer is reallie simple... We couldn't have done it without the teachings of our beloved instructor, Mr. Khamis. Hahahahx, its true thou. He's been a big influence in my life and the way he arranged the songs is just so intriguing. Sometimes, i myself try to imagine how he does it. Always getting the rite chords, and the type of playing.

After the concert, the instruments were send back to our school at the very same nite. I was tired and dead beat. When all the instruments were packed, i went to kopitiam wif my frens to eat. We talked bout the concert and the memories that will certainly be remembered throughout the concert. Its reallie a memory which i wont forget and i am now looking forward to the SYF 2005 which will be held in April ltr tis year. Alritey then, il stop here for now.

My FiRsT eNtRy

Well, after much persuasion from my frens, i 've decided to do myself a blog. Hmm, its kinda fun to write bout my opinions freely and with no restrictions. Since today is Chinese New Year, i would like to wish all my chinese frens Happy Lunar New Year and have a nice holidae to all my non-chinese frens. Its a two day holidae! and i've some outings planned wif my frens later on.

Niwaes, i watched the movie Constantine yesterday. Its a great movie and it is surprisingly humourous. Guess its kinda like a supernatural movie, i expected it to be scary and serious but it turns out to be fun and entertaining. Kudos to Keanu Reeves!!! I watch it with Tassha, Faris and Alim at Century Square. After the movie which ended arnd 5, i sent Tassha home. On the way to her house, we talked bout myself. Dunnoe y nowadays many ppl have been asking me bout my ex. Since i only had 1, they asked me bout her and y i neva go find a new one. Well, my answer is simple girls... I found the girl for me already, just that i fear that il make the same mistakes twice and regret it. I already regret bout my ex and i don't wanna do it again. So i told her bout my ex, as Tassha is the only person i trust sincerely.. Hahahahx, if ur reading this don't *blush*..

After sending her home, i went straight home also and log in to MSN. Den my frens starts to bug me to do tis blog thingy. So here i am, done with tis blog. iL end here for now, il keep posting if i have the time.. Bon VoYaGe!!!

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